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@testin i was trying to delete the account myself to avoid archival, but yes, the image folder is pretty good.
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@moonman I do, but I also don't wanna send out 50k delete notices. If it won't do that, then yeah, delete it please.
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@moonman
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I'm noticing the "delete account" option does not work here.
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@nerthos literally the biggest symptoms of bpd are extreme switching of values/identity and sudden hostility/change of opinion on friends and family. there is no way to remove those symptoms (especially by "just doing it") while remaining "delores". this identity has been a journal of the worst parts of my mind through the worst years of my life and i have not desired to make it pretty or nice for others to interact with. the killing of this identity is to cut off one of the arms that feeds these abusive actions through offering more arguments to reply to and more jokes to be made at my failures. it is a purge of my mind from pointless fighting and irritating drama, one of the most important things to free myself of.
i am glad you posted this, as it has let me come up with more reasons to justify leaving this behind. despite all my struggling and self hatred, i will leave still known as "that asshole who just didn't want to try". and i'm glad, because it's not worth fighting that reputation anymore.
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@moonman I did not horny post. Do not lie about me you coward.
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@moonman @rice @awl @wakarimasen @shpuld @augustus @why @roko @rw @lnxw48a1 @1iceloops123 @dirb Thanks! I'm sure you all have my contact information or can at least message around for it if needed. Keep SPC alive in my memory (assuming I don't come back in a week like usual) ✊
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@shmibs Absolutely. Being productive is what makes me feel alive.
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For anybody wondering why I'm not posting:
For a long time, I've been struggling with posting everything and anything that came to my mind, which was often followed by guilt, shame, and being mocked. The follower reset during SPC's conversion has offered me a fresh start where I no longer feel obligated to entertain hundreds of people through my own moral humiliation. If I'm ever to beat BPD and that 1/10 suicide rate, I have to treat myself with more respect, which involves being around only the best company and treating myself better. Continuing posting under this identity while doing that just wouldn't be possible. I can't promise that I won't come back, because I have been here for years and it's very habitual to be here, but as of now I think it's for the best.
I have an alt (and potentially a shitposting alt in the future) somewhere on the fedi, although it's not directly linked and you'll have to ask around to find it. So long and thanks for the good times!
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@thegayestdoggo welcome to the good side of *nix
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at least i can kill myself in rp lol
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me: ah yes, roleplay, this will be good escapism for the fear of abandonment and being abused in my real life
my rp char: pc partner literally cheats on them every chance they get
me: https://shitposter.club/attachment/2851781
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delores deleted notice {{tag:shitposter.club,2018-12-27:noticeId=13749351:objectType=note}}.
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@moonman im willing to sacrifice myself in this cause
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@amic can i get uhhh
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update on apple chips: not great. then again i didnt like these apples when they weren't dehydrated, let alone now.
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weird bpd thing: absolutely loving being erotic, teasing, and leading people on. when the time for sex comes.. i couldn't want it less. love the build up, hate the actual thing.
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Just Monika.
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today on deloresworld: all of my rp characters overworry and plan sabotages like me irl
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https://shitposter.club/attachment/2849703
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